In my life, there were many instances where I felt alone. I thought that no one understood my pain, my regret, or my struggles. Thoughts of running, suicide, and hatred consumed me; my life was in darkness. I know that many people feel this way, too. It feels like the world is against you; it feels like you have no where to run, no one to confide in. To those of you that feel that way, I want to tell you one thing: you’re not alone.
“I despise my life; I would not live forever. Let me alone; my days have no meaning.” – Job 7:16 (NIV)
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. 30 But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows. ( Matthew 10: 29-31)
He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. – Psalm 62:2 (NIV)
Numb Feeling
What doesn’t kill you,
will makes you stronger,
maybe the pain inside,
will keep me that much longer,
everyday I see it fit,
to see my one desire,
but everyday it comes and goes,
like a candle that burnt out it fire.My heart has turned to ash,
broken one to many time.
My stomach turns to knots,
in a twist and in a bind.
My head begins to ache,
to the point of no return.
My eyes begin to glisten,
everything turns into a blur.This life that had surrounded me,
has taken me on a ride,
though twist, and turns, and corksrews, and into many binds,
I lead the life ahead with many doubts,
but I’m forced to lead it ahead with a smile instead of frownsMy heart has turned to ash,
broken one to many times.
My stomach turns to knots,
in a twist and a bind,
My head begins to ache,
to the point of no return.
My eyes begin to glisten,
everything into a blur.My life will be just like this,
until the day I die.By: Anna Van Cleef ©
April 14, 2006
I am no better than you. I am no different than you. I have the love, grace, and power of God behind me; do you?
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